Today's workouts:
Turbo Fire - Fire 30 and Stretch 10
321 calories/32:34
Power Pairs x3 and Ab Burner on Nike Training Club app
378 calories/50:23
This weekend was really hard on me. It started with unnecessary, hurtful drama from coworkers made worse by zero support from my useless excuse for a manager... and ended with unnecessary, hurtful drama from other people in my life that, though probably not intended as malicious, ended up causing a lot of stress and pain for me. Oh, and Godspell opens on Friday. Definitely no stress there.
So when I woke up this morning, I was so insanely grateful it was Monday, and that the weekend was over (that's not a good sign, really...), and then I got smacked in the face with more stress. Essentially, I lost it, and to quote Julie and Julia... "I cried like a small, emotionally disturbed child." It was super glamorous. And to be honest, I wanted a whole lot more of this...
than this...
And then I actually started my workout. And my whole attitude changed. I was so incredibly grateful to be able to do that workout. I pushed myself hard because I knew I could, and how fantastic is it to know you can push yourself? To know that your body is strong and that you are capable of whatever you've set your mind to. I took all of the pain and stress of the past few days and used it as energy. With every punch and kick, I felt it leave my body. When it was hard, I talked myself through it, because I knew how badly I needed it. And when it was all said and done, I felt so much better. I think I successfully sweat out all the negativity I had in me.
The truth is, I try not to take exercise and eating all that seriously most of the time - I'll skip workouts and eat cake and it's okay with me. But sometimes I think we all forget what a profound blessing it is to simply be able to move! Running is a gift, Turbo Fire is a gift, whatever activity you love is an absolute gift. And I feel silly because I'm honestly getting all emotional writing this, but it was such a wakeup call for me today. Sure, it was grueling, and part of wanted to whine the entire time about how hard it was and how sweat was dripping off my nose and I can't stand it when sweat drips off my stupid nose... but I was practically having a panic attack and 30 minutes of Turbo Fire later, I was smiling. I won't go so far as to say it was a miracle (that cupcake up there is the true miracle), but I will take a moment to say thank you to my body for being able to do that for me.
I hope you all felt blessed with your own movement today, and if not, then maybe tomorrow! Or... just bless yourself with the miracle of cake.
I am SO with you, running is a gift and so are cupcakes! Sorry you've been having work drama, so have I and I HATE it. Can't we all just get along. Our boss called a meeting the other day and we were all like "NO we don't want to talk about feeling!" but she was only telling us we are getting a raise, HA!
ReplyDeleteWork drama is the WORST! But hey, congratulations on the raise, that's pretty fantastic! I hope your drama resolves itself soon!
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