Sunday, April 15, 2012

I'm baaaaaaaaaaack.

I know... it's been forever.  And now I'm randomly popping up on a Saturday at 9:30 pm.  The truth is that I've been planning on making a comeback for a while now, but for some reason or another, it kept not happening...


Really, I think I just wanted to make my first post back completely perfect.  But then I realized that nothing about this blog has ever been perfect... it's just been me.  So here I am!  Back from the land of not blogging.

First of all, I want to say a huge THANK YOU for all of the sweet and considerate emails that you all sent me in my absence.  Everybody was so supportive and I hope you know how much I appreciated everything you said.  That being said... if you are wondering why you didn't get a response and feeling pretty mad at me, please forgive me.  The truth is that after everything that happened in January, I kind of blew off a lot of responsibilities and assorted things, including checking the email I made for this blog.  I only recently realized that and started reading through said considerate emails.   I am now in the process of responding to them, so I promise you will get a response!  It is not because I don't love you, because I do... I was just lax in checking that email address.

Now for the burning question that I know you are all dying to ask: Jessica, are you okay?

And the answer is... I AM GREAT!

Honestly, life is really good right now.  January was terrible, and I'll be honest... February wasn't much better.  In case you're wondering, I did not end up doing the half marathon in February that I had trained for, but it was not because I was too busy wallowing in my own sorrow (I was much better by then) - it was because I had caught the flu from a coworker and it was snowing.  And as smart as I thought running a half marathon in the snow while sick with the flu would be, I decided to skip it.  Actually, I decided to skip running entirely in February and March.  

So here are the big updates on life in general:
  • David and I did talk again after my last post, and decided to remain broken up.  We have not talked since, which was my choice - I thought it would be better if we had space.  I'll be honest and say that I was miserable for a little while, and I just kept replaying things in my head and trying to figure out what went wrong and what I could have done differently.  But I healed pretty quickly and realized how right the decision was.  I tried to deny it, but I was dreading moving to Los Angeles, and I can't even explain how freeing it is to know that I don't have to anymore!  I still think of him and hope he's doing well, but I am happy with that decision.
  • For most of February, I had no idea what to do with myself.  With the weight of moving to L.A. off of my shoulders, I felt very free, which was a wonderful feeling that left me completely restless.  So I did what anybody living a double life would do - I booked a trip to Orlando to do some seasonal work at Jungle Cruise.  At the risk of sounding cheesy, this trip turned 2012 around for me.  On my last College Program, one of my roommates, Breanne, worked with and became friends with a guy named Jamie.  We had hung out a little and I thought he was really fun, but I was with David and thought that Jamie was in love with Breanne, so I didn't think much of it.  Fast forward to the last week in February when I'm in Orlando, and Jamie and I go out to dinner.  He showed up at the door of my hotel room looking incredibly cute in a button down shirt and smelling way too good, and I have to admit that I got really flustered - apparently I had been so absorbed in being in a relationship to remember how cute he was.  He took me to a little Italian restaurant and I think I barely ate because I was so nervous.  Then the next night, my plans fell through, so we went to Epcot together and then he took me to Jellyrolls, a dueling piano bar, for my very first time.  He held my hand at the bar and kissed me before he left that night :)  we ended up spending a lot of time together, and I came home absolutely elated.  
  • In that elation, I realized what restless me wanted to do - GO BACK TO DISNEY.  So I applied for twelve Disney internships.  Yup.  Twelve.  I was on a mission.  
  • At the end of March, I went back to Orlando and back to Jamie.  More spending time together, more holding hands, more kissing... and then he asked me to be his girlfriend.  Cue more elation!

And here's the really big update... on April 6th, I got a call from a lovely woman named Amy, who works in Casting at Walt Disney World.  She asked me several questions, and then offered me an internship in Guest Relations!!!  Guest Relations is one of my dream jobs, so obviously after I remembered how to breathe and stopped jumping up and down, I said YES.  The internship starts on June 14th, so I will be headed back down to Orlando in just about 8 weeks!  Life is wonderful :)

So in honor of all the big changes happening in my life, I decided to treat myself to my own domain.  As fun as Running for Bikinis has been... it seems to be a time for change in my life, and that includes my little blog.  I have purchased a new domain and am in the process of moving everything over.  I think you will all love the new blog name :)

And there it is!  My big update!  I'm glad to be back with all of you :)