Half Marathon Training Week Seven, Day Three (7 mile run)
My first seven mile run of all time has now been completed! If I had any energy left, I would probably do a cheer. Instead, I am channeling all of my energy into typing. No, really. I had to take a break from typing the word "channeling" to yawn because I didn't think I could type and yawn at the same time. This is how exhausted running seven miles made me.
Overall, I'm very proud of myself... and thrilled that my mom is a very nice woman who will pick me up at the end of long runs so I don't have to run hills to get home. But this was an incredibly challenging run. Interestingly enough, I think it was actually more challenging for me mentally than physically. Yes, my legs were heavy and tired, but it was my brain that really wanted to quit. I actually did almost quit about halfway through. But I kept telling myself that I was strong and that I could do this. I thought of my bestie Chalene, who regularly reminds me to speak to myself in a positive voice.
Of course, if I had those legs, I would constantly speak to myself in a positive voice.
It turns out I have a lot of negative voices in my head and very few positive ones. So while there were several boisterous opinions about my failings bouncing around, there was just a very small voice saying, "It's okay, just keep running, you can do this." It's amazing I heard it at all. I am going to have to work on that - letting go of my negative voices.
Physically, the run wasn't too bad. I am finding that the first few miles are actually a lot harder than the last few for me. I think for the first two or three, my body just keeps saying, "Seriously? We're doing this? Are you sure you want to keep doing this?" And so I drag my feet and question my abilities and worry and freak out about pacing. But after that, my body resigns itself... "Well, damn, I guess you're not going to stop running. All right. I give up." That being said, Lefty the Angry Hammy did make an appearance again today, presenting itself at around 2.5 miles, and never leaving. Lefty is wearing out his welcome. I came home and stretched for a while and sticked it, so I'm hoping that helps. This week, I'm going to try using the Stick after every workout - normally I use it after running, and kind of only when I remember, so I'm going to add it into my post-Turbo routine as well and see how that goes.
Benefits of the run? I got to meet a black and white kitty (and yes, I stopped my Garmin and my iPod just so I could pet a cat for a few minutes... I am desperate for cat love), saw the sun rise, saw several deer having a nice grassy breakfast, and... oh yeah, ate half a Snickers bar.
I think that's the first Snickers I've had since last Halloween. Not going to lie, I love me some Snickers, but it is kind of odd to be eating that at 5:45 in the morning. I'm not sure how well it worked for me, either. I crashed HARD during this run. But that might also be a combination of factors - I left a half hour later than I did for my 6 mile run, so it was a little hotter, and I was rationing out the Cytomax, which left me very thirsty. Note to self: BUY A CAMELBAK, FOOL. Plus, I only got about 6 hours of sleep, and I was sore from yesterday's 20 minutes of Turbo followed by manic packing and zero stretching. But boy did that Snickers get me out of bed... I was really having trouble getting up, and the second I thought of the Snickers bar, I jumped right out. Proving that you can take the fat off of the girl, but you can't get it out of her head. Or something like that. I told you I was tired.
Sidenote: if you noticed that my mileage on dailymile (or my sidebar) and/or the number of cheeseburgers it says I earned on my sidebar went WAY up, it's because I finally took the time to update my dailymile account and add in several weeks of runs. I can't believe I've run 144 miles this year... especially since I only really started running again in April. That's 144 miles in a little over 4 months! I'm so proud I can hardly stand it. So... I'll just go to bed instead.
Do you have negative voices in your head during runs? What do you do to combat them?